I have to change the habit of keeping everything under control When mess caught me I was always so at loss that I started to judge my whole life all over again But losing control is hard Giving away part of the power over my own life is insane I'm not sure if this happens to you finishing all the work long before ddl and keep adjusting the ever-changing standard while cursing Going to every appointment at least 30 mins earlier and waiting for another 15 mins when the actual time arrives Kindly help troubleshooting but end up being the trouble itself because all trouble came to you eventually thanks to your noble kindheartedness It turns out that if you put too much effort controling everything They will come back and control you