-I know your type. you're a surgical junkie.

-Yes, sir.

-I'm just saying it's not gonna be easy for you to be away from the OR all that long.

-No, sir

-And if you want to get back to the OR, you're gonna tell me what I need to know, aren't you?

-You're right.?It's not easy for me to be away from the OR. it's not easy for me to sit in front of you or any other authority figure it for that matter and not be able to give you the exact answer you want to hear.

I'm the one with the answers. I've always been the one with the answers, but right now, sir, I don't have any.

-Doctor Yang.

-How do you keep your edge, sir?

Because I watch you and you've been doing this a long time, and you're clean, you're focused, you are the job, nothing gets to you.?

And the thing is, sir, I was like that until I got here, until I actually started doing this job. And now everything is fuzzy.

-That's beside the point.

-no, see, sir, this is the point.

because I can't tell you what happened in that room. I can't tell you. And before I could have. no guilt, no loyalties, no problem. Before, before I wouldn't have even been in that room, I wouldn't have gotten it involved. I would have never frozen in surgery. I would have told them what I thought he should do.

I had an edge, sir. I had an edge and I've lost it. and I need it, I need it back.

So if you could just tell me how you keep yours and how not to be affected, I know I could be a great surgeon. So If you could just give me the answers, I would really appreciate it.

-you're excused Dr. Yang.

-but..

-you're excused.?

-I'll tell you. I'll tell you who cut the LVAD wire.?sir, if you could just please..

-I don't wanna know. Not from you. I have the answers, but I can't tell them to you. I'm not gonna be responsible for you becoming less human.?